My last three weeks have been packed. I had the OGC first, and I spoke and taught several classes there. Then the past two weekends I engaged in long days of movement and training to earn my Nia White Belt. In between, I've been working on ghost writing a book for a client, working for my employer, and a few personal projects. I also filed taxes and FAFSA. There was lots going on.
Throughout that time, I struggled with a disruptive health issue. I was frustrated my body wasn't cooperating with me. I sent it love and energy. I visualized. I gave myself Reiki. I affirmed. I begged and pleaded. I used toning and meditation. I resorted to medications to suppress what was going on as patches to get me through.
Yesterday after my White Belt graduation, I was reflecting and the simplest idea occurred to me. I needed to ask my body what it needed. So I did, and it told me via intuition and dreams what it wanted and needed.
For three weeks, I have ignored my body's signals so I could get through what I wanted, frustrated with its lack of cooperation. I saw my body as being in the way of my work and goals. All the while, my body was trying to get my attention. As I ignored it, it chose increasingly more inconvenient times to signal me until I finally listened and asked what it needed. Today, I feel like I'm on the mend as I meet my body's needs.
Before every energy healing session I do with others, I stand at their feet with my hands in prayer position and ask what they need. Then, I am guided to provide that. Yet it never occurred to me to offer myself the same thing. All the tricks in the world won't work if I don't listen to my body. Heard and noted.